Torino! I love these two beautfil children! Its been such a haerd week for me..after the deathof my Grear Grandmother last mondau evening…and they just brighten my day!
So I havent beeen on here in ages!!! Sorry been busy working in Italy! Its AMAZING here! So much has happened during this time! I went to Rome for three weeks holiday…actually went just to see the ex…but he ended up not coming to see me :( It hurt like hell…I got drunk pretty much every night in Rome, apart from 3 nights when I was sick! He hurt me soo badly…and I finallyy told him Im done…I canr do this anymore…and then I asked him (while I was sober) why make all the plans we made, why tell me I better come see you in Italy this summer, why why why? I sent this message like 2 weeks ago, he finally gave me an answer last night “I avoided you because I didn’t want to fall in love with you again” Damn it just as Im trying to let him go…he says something like that…now I have no choice but to admit that I still miss and love him soo much…even after everything…after the way hes treated me! As much as I try to deny it my heeart still belongs to him! Idk what to do now! Im soo confused1 He seems to be able to tell exactly when Im starting to move on from him, and then booommm he springs something like this one me! IDK IDK IDK! Mammaaa miaaaa